Here I am, 5 months since my last post, and making yet another effort to get back on track with my health and fitness goals. Last March I thought I was seeing the 190's for the last time. I lost 25+ pounds by the end of June and was feeling pretty confident. Heading into summer, I figured that I would be able to find the extra time to work out in order to get rid of the last 25 pounds I wanted to lose once and for all..... but no. Didn't happen quite like I envisioned. Instead, I got sick and spent the better part of the summer with bronchitis and pneumonia. I wasn't able to work out at all, and I had no energy... well, except to eat ice cream, which was probably my biggest source of calories. Great.....
I have to give myself credit. When I get off track, I don't do it small. I go WAY off track. In fact, I can't even see the damn track at all. So in terms of getting off track, I'm a frigging expert. Oh yeah, anything you want to know about how to get off track, I can tell you. :)
Seriously though, I know that the sarcastic talk in the previous paragraph really is counterproductive. It isn't going to help me figure out the WHY. Getting off track really isn't something I want to be good at, but at times I feel powerless to stop it from happening. It's like a self-fulfilling prophecy. I have done this to myself so many times, despite all the reasons not to, that I just don't know how to keep it from happening. This is something that I have GOT to get a handle on if I am ever going to be truly successful for the long term. It's been nearly 5 years since I started at 232 pounds. In the time since then, I had about a year of actually staying at the weight that I was happy at. Not long enough. Time to get the work done to get back there. I know I can, because I HAVE. In my next post, I'll outline my plan of action.
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